caballo6
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caballo6 (4 months ago) It will be a year soon since I found out that my husband of 26 yrs was having an affair for over 5yrs. And for the past week I have been so deppress that I don't even know who I am anymore. I have been crying for a whole week with barely getting any sleep and I am very confuse now. I filed for divorce after he refused to go to councelling and I don't know what to do. I miss the person that I thought he was and I feel like someone very dear to me died but I don't know when he died and I miss him. I refuse to believe that the person that I knew could do this to our family. We still share the family home in separate bedrooms but at time all I want to do is to cuddle with him just like we use to be. He was always very sensitive to my needs and he adored his children. I just don't get it how he could do this to us for so long with no remorce and still doing it. I've been married to him since i was 19yrs old and now im 45yrs old and I don't know anyother way to survive emotionally other than being with him and my kids. We work really hard to provide everything they ever needed and some more, but now I feel that it was just a big lie and I was the fool for all those year because I also found a fake divorce certificate that he created since 1994 and apparently he has been showing it to women to convince them that he was divorce and that he was in the home just for his kids and that he had nothing to do with me. THIS IS VERY SAD!!!!!!!!


OneJourney (4 months ago) Caballo6- I'm sorry to hear you are going through such pain and confusion. Divorce/separation IS like a death- you do need to grieve the loss of what was, who you were (and he was) and what won't be anymore. It's difficult and SO exhausting. And I could tell you that it will get better, and you need time, and all that (which is all true), but it's probably hard to wrap your head around that. For now, just remember that you are NOT a fool, and you have a chance right now to make a change in your life. Just remember to make the change in your best interests and believe that you deserve to be loved and appreciated!